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How did I fail?

Jun 11, 2009, 6:22:28 AM by ~Fallen--Angel89
Literature / Poetry / Horror / Free Verse

I was doing so well
How did I fail?
Was it weeks or months
Or just a couple of days

But time is time
And it still means I stopped
But what happened then?
What went wrong?

I had no red lines
No blood or new scars
I was so proud of me
But then I failed

I tried so hard
I thought I was succeeding
But just one day
And I'm back to the begining

How long must I stop?
How long will it take?
Stopping is hard
But not stopping is harder

Distractions don't help
Neither does talking
And thinking of family and friends
Only makes me feel worse

I tried to stop for them
But they didn't know
I failed my silent battle
And still nobody saw

It gets worse every day
And soon it will go too far
I'm running out of motivation
And I can't hide my scars

My legs my arms
Even my neck
All have scars
And still no one notices

Maybe if they noticed
Maybe if they cared
Maybe I wouldn't have got worse
Maybe I wouldn't have failed

How did I fail?
What went wrong?
Last night was the night
I ended my life

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favourite poem so far i think

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Hot water bottle makes it worse
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My arms covered in blood
My heart skips a beat
And I’m all out of love

Taking these pills
One by one they go
Drinking them with poison
Watching my life disappear

Looking around the room
I see no hope at all
Walls so cold and dirty
My life all blank and empty

My heart forever broken
I look upon the ceiling
There I see a rope
Dangling from up above

I tie all up together
So it’s tight and won’t break
Stand upon the stool
Holding the knife in hand

Reaching up above
No tears fall down my face
I start to write on my wrists
Before I die tonight

I hope you all forgive me
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i'm sorry for hurting you I’m not as strong as you say I am,
And I’m not as weak as I may appear,
But too much is on my mind,
And I have too much to fear.

A promise broke again

I always told you I can’t make a promise,
That I will never be able to keep,
But you kept pestering me into making it,
And I want to forever sleep.

A promise broke again

You see I’m too emotional inside,
Can’t cope with these feelings no more,
My depressions come back to haunt me,
And the blood dripped onto the floor.

A promise broke again

You see I can’t make this promise,
Or I’ll just keep on hurting you all,
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Jun 29, 2011, 2:21:43 AM by ~Fallen--Angel89
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Found this awesome website a while ago, it's just blank space and you can go and post a message, would love it if you could go have a look and leave a message :
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~bluetreehugger Jun 23, 2010

^{Thank you for the fav!}

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^{all the love gone bad,
turned my world to black...}

~VampiricBountyHunter Sep 29, 2009

HI! What's up?

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Don't tell me the sky's the limit when I can see footprints on the moon. <3

I'm looking for a new best friend, since the one I had wasn't returned to the lost and found.

*LiiQa Jul 12, 2009

_{Thank You!}

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~Beverly-Westal Jul 9, 2009

Thanks for the watch and the fav. Don't forget to check out the rest of my gallery if you have time.

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"We need to make books cool again.
If you go home with somebody
and they don't have books,
don't fuck them."
-John Waters-

~Fallen--Angel89 Jul 9, 2009

thats ok, will do

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I'm more dead than alive when I can't be with you.

Forgive me for what I do my love; in the depths of insanity the sane man holds no court.

I dream of a love. . . A love that even time itself will lie down and be still for - Practical Magic

*Sad-and-Fallen-Angel Jul 9, 2009

Thank you for the

Proud COTN and a Romantic Gothic transgendered poet, definitely born in the century.

Is there anything more beautiful than a sunrise, after a night that lasts forever.

~Fallen--Angel89 Jul 9, 2009

thats ok, you're really talented

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I'm more dead than alive when I can't be with you.

Forgive me for what I do my love; in the depths of insanity the sane man holds no court.

I dream of a love. . . A love that even time itself will lie down and be still for - Practical Magic

~13vampireangel Jul 3, 2009

awww

hi. u wanna be my new best friend? he he u can come and talk to me about stuff if u want=/ i know how u feel...

Confidence is a must, happiness is a plus.

~Fallen--Angel89 Jul 4, 2009

i'd love to be your new best friend

*hug* i hope you're ok. you are a fantastic writer by the way

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I'm more dead than alive when I can't be with you.

Forgive me for what I do my love; in the depths of insanity the sane man holds no court.

I dream of a love. . . A love that even time itself will lie down and be still for - Practical Magic

~13vampireangel Jul 5, 2009

aww yay! thats awesome thanks so much

Confidence is a must, happiness is a plus.

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